A scent of Yves Saint Laurent still in my hair and that is the only thing that keeps me sane today. Any other way - I’m going way out of my mind. Insanely tired, confused and helpless. Kthanksbye.
Briesmīgi svaidos starp emocijām un pieredzi.
Visticamāk, es atkal neizlemšu neko labāku kā iet prom un aizmirst.
Tikai es gribu, lai atkal neesmu vienīgā, kas šādu soli sper.
Hello there. I really don’t want to waste anyones time, so you don’t have to read this, because the following text will be spilling hatred on something very actual.
So lately the trending topic in internet world is STOP KONY 2012. I’m in course of the situation and I really would like to show my respect for the people whose families have been destroyed, for all the children that has been through the sick ideas of this man. But if I am not able to spend my free time going to different institutions, writing petitions, leading protest campaigns etc. unselfish, enthusiastic people do (activists it is), I accept the fact that I can’t do that with my whole heart, and neither can you if you’re in a similiar situation like me. Thanks for the people who made up this video about raising support for his arrest and raising societies interest about this problem. But as I suppose, some people (oh, wait, approximately at least 250 000) have misunderstood the message. The target of this campaign was to show respect, to make people stop whining about their lifes small problems and look up to something globally more important. It was not about turning teenage self called ‘hipsters’ into self called ‘activists’, who show their activity by retweeting all the messages, that promises to save an african kids life, making posts in tumblr with a typical intro like “If you don’t reblog this you have no heart…” and writing all over the walls of social media that they care so much. Bitches, please!!! You clearly have no single idea what an activist is. I also exactly like you just got the information about Joseph Kony and the situation of Ugandas people lifes, but that doesn’t give me a reason to declare myself as a part of the Unicef. Since when did long videos on youtube make yourself a kind-hearted girl/boy who stands after the rights of children in Africa? Do you actually know that this isn’t the only situation like this, the only man who has been this ruthless? How many of you actually donated some money that you would be spending on App store instead? How many of you even know where Uganda is? Have you ever heard of it before? Do you know that this has been happening to people in the whole world since the day you were born and even way before? This was meant to raise interest in society, get some people to actually do stuff, make a change, not become a new trend to tweet about. Think about it.
Of course the world has to stop Kony (and try to change the whole situation in the war zones), but first we need to stop acting stupid, shut up or go and make a change instead.
doesn’t mean I’m going to unfollow you, if I’m still following you, though
It was just selfish, stupid and dumb to say that nobody cares about me that other day. I am lucky to have friends like mine, I am lucky to have them near me, to hear them worrying about me. I just love them so much.
corelliasmind
T - 5 things I love unconditionally:
W - An idol. It’s hard to decide, I have so many people around me that I can learn a lot of; so I am going to say that my idols are my closest ones, friends and family, they complete me, I take lessons from their failures and appreciate their success.
X - If I’ve done something I regret very much. There isn’t just one certain thing, but I regret every time I have attached to people before realizing if they have ever felt the same for me. Sad, but true.
Thank you very much, xoxo. (:
So I spent two hours lying in bed snuggled up in my favorite blanket with my favorite heart shaped pillow thinking about how my life looks pretty to others, yet really sucks in reality. I feel shitty, I’m upset but seems like no one even gives a fuck which kind of makes me think that I don’t have any friends at all. I mean, I try my best to be there when they need me; where are they now - when I feel like a wreck, when I am fucking falling apart? It is a lot of drama in my life. I hate it. The only friends I had while being in my room, staring at the ceiling, feeling depressed as fuck (even though I do not have a depression), were Kid Cudi, Hurts and Muse. And yeah even they do not know I actually exist. I am tired, I am so sick and tired of my infinite searchings for happiness, complete life and shit, because even if it lasts for a day or two I will still end up sitting alone torturing myself with depressing music and screaming inside for help. At times like this I just want to disappear, vanish of this planet for couple of hours to avoid life’s toughest storms (what a metaphore). I don’t want anyone to feel bad for me or help me, because only I can be my own hero; I just want someone to show me they care like I do every goddamnit time they want me to. I just feel so fucking alone.
It is nice to know that someone that you care a lot about suddenly doesn’t even give a shit about you.
